Tattoo Dream?

I just had a dream that I was giving someone a tattoo. It was weird and scary at the same time. I was like, "Sweet! I'm giving someone a tattoo! Wait... I don't know how to give a tattoo... :O"

In the dream I messed it up pretty bad and I felt pretty dumb. Oh well. That's what dreams are for. To let us know what we're not doing in life and to let us explore those things we may never get a chance to do.

Our kitten is so cute. I never did write about her here, but we have a little kitten. Her name is Halo. Most of the time N calls her Bubbuz and sometimes I call her 'kitten'. lol Her full name is Luna Halo E**s the Third. I like it.

Well, I gotta take a shower and head out to work. Peace.

Going to work

I'm about to go to work. So, I think this is just to get an entry in since I've been so lax about it for the past year.

Anyway, I hope it goes well. I pray that I do my best and that God blesses it.

Swimming

I forgot how much I love swimming. My love and I went swimming after she got home from work. It was cold at first, then got warm, then got cold again. haha It was one of those things where you get used to the water but then the temperature drops outside and kind of ruins it. Either way, it was a fun time.

She just chatted and chatted about her day and was being who she is when she's so pure and innocent. It's so cute. I got to see her drenched with water and just noticed how beautiful she was all over again...

I love her.

We're getting married in just 6 weeks!

We did get into a little tiffy this morning but she called and apologized directly afterward... God is so faithful. I had just prayed not 2 minutes before the call. I know she loves me, it just hurts how she talks sometimes because it just seems as though she doesn't. But, again, I know emotions are real, but you can't base truth off of them.

Work was aight. Well, we're about 3 work days into a little experiment that Bill and Abe have going on. Dex will be in charge for one month, followed by me, and vice versa for a couple more months after. Then, we'll be evaluated and a manager will be named from between the two of us.

All I know is that I work for God first and foremost. I pray that I bring Him honor each day in all I do and say... though, that part is the most difficult. It seems as though all I bring Him is shame since I make so many mistakes... not only that, but it seems that all that people want to focus on these days. Negativity. It's a real challenge to portray that which you believe in most without coming up short once in a while... or even all the time. =/

Oh well, I guess that's why there's forgiveness...

I love her

Ok, one month, 18 days until we're married. We've overcome so much and we've grown closer still. She's the love of my life and I've met none like her. I'm looking forward to marriage for so many reasons... the reasons I had as a kid and the newly found reasons I've picked up on my path with her.

First off, I love her more and more each and every day. I love her more as she grows closer to the Lord. I love her more when she looks at me and makes her silly faces and whines at me to hug and kiss her...

She's truly one of a kind and the love of my life. I appreciate so much about her. When she's who God made her to be, she's the most kind, loving, caring, gentle person I know. She cares so much more about other people than most people I know... she's passionate! Passionate to the core! She's got the best eye for creativity that I've ever been around. She can take a piece of paper and turn it into a beautiful collection of art.

She's driven to do what's right... like, right when I need it. She's always encouraging me to be doing what's best for us and for others. She's courageous... my goodness is she! She'll be afraid of doing something, and when I see that I think usually that person will not do it... but not her. She does it! She'll grit her teeth and go what needs to be done. She's extremely strong and yet is as sensitive a person I've ever known.

She loves the lost and needy... she cares for each person she meets, even if she doesn't care for the way they hurt others. Without her, I'd be stuck doing nothing with no ambition. She's the love of my life and I'm so grateful to have known her.

I cannot wait to marry her, fall sleep next to her, wake up with her, and fall in love with her all over again every morning...

Musicals and My Love

So, I'm in love with a musical. What? How? I don't know. It's awesome though. It's called Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along-Blog. It's amazing in every way. Witty, funny, whimsical, tragic.... yes, I said tragic. Don't ask. Just watch it.

The songs are amazing. I've since been singing and trying to not look gay, but eh'. I love music. I love the way the music in this short film blends so well with the characters. Very well done.

In other news I love Niki. Like, I'm talking head-over-heals. She's so amazing. Always encouraging and I couldn't imagine life without her... and I don't want to. Her smile, her laugh, her smell... everything about her is just amazing. Just the fact that she puts up with me. I'd say that's an accomplishment in and of itself.

So, I need to go see the new Batman movie. It looks awesome. I loved Batman Begins. This is gonna be sweet.

Swinging

Have you ever just gone to the park late at night and gotten on the swings? Well, it's definitely an awesome thing to do when you're with someone who's having just as much fun as you. Maybe it's true, it's immature. But, the truth is that I'm glad I can have a good time being myself.

Besides, I almost hurled after I went upside down on the swings. How awesome is that?

Go out with your girlfriend, check. Get dinner, check. Go to the park at 10:30pm and almost hurl on a swing-set, check.

Yeap, sounds just about like an amazing night in the making... or perhaps just the beginning of a relationship with Brian... hhmm

It wouldn't have been the first time I've hurled in front of a girlfriend. The now infamous "van ride" to San Jose with the Lopez family was a good way to break in a new relationship.
I'll never forget those sweet words coming from my then sweetie, "Um... Dad. Can you pull over? Brian doesn't look so good."

It was no sooner than her saying those words when the bottle of water I had drank that morning made a grand exit from my tummy and luckily missing everything (and everyone) of importance.

Laughter ensued.

Why?

Was it because I was the guy who was trying to impress his new girlfriend's family? Maybe it was because it was just hilarious of me to throw up in the back seat of my girlfriend's dad's van. Perhaps it was because everyone knew I was a little bit nervous. Or... maybe, just maybe, it was because it was all these things coupled with the fact that I'm just Brian.

Whatever it may be, I've still not lived that day down. Not because it was a one time thing, but because it's been a legacy of mine. I've since thrown up two more times in a Lopez vehicle. That's right, two more times. Wow, talk about a series of bad luck events.

Anyway, needless to say I didn't want to start this relationship off the same way. It's good to know that I saw the consequences of a bad call of mine to go upside down while swinging (after eating food at Denny's) and got off the swings-set in a timely manner.

Yeap, I've learned my lesson. In fact, we went on to have a great night watching the stars and having a great time (without a stomach evacuation occurring) together.

Plus, thank goodness I have a wonderful girlfriend who seems to understand that I'm just not normal. Not only that, she thinks it's pretty cool. And that, my friends, I can't take for granted. I'm freakin' weird and I know it.

Oh, and I finally let myself go a bit that night. I was rewarded with a great return. Here's to a great start of a new relationship...


...hopefully without a traditional Brian 'moment'.

Getting out with pianos.

I almost got away with doing absolutely nothing today. Well, not counting having lunch with the family. Up until about 8pm I was home free with my "I'm not doin' nothin' today at all!" day. Then everyone was going to Denny's which I wasn't going to go to until I heard that Tessa said she wanted to show me the song I had showed her a long time ago on the piano.

I had to go now. She'd been practicing all year! I really wanted to hear it, plus it had been a while since I had seen her and everyone else. OH OH, and Kyle's back too! Sweet.

So, we went to Denny's, ate, then went to Kyle and Tessa's. She played the piano for me and it was absolutely beautiful. I sang and played the piano a bit and that was fun. I love to play whenever I get a chance. It's pretty much awesome.

Mike and I came back to my house and we've been just talking ever since. It's now late and I need to go to bed.

Oh, the A's won today. They've been mediocre at best this month... it's been pretty bad. I hope they do better.