Musicals and My Love

So, I'm in love with a musical. What? How? I don't know. It's awesome though. It's called Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along-Blog. It's amazing in every way. Witty, funny, whimsical, tragic.... yes, I said tragic. Don't ask. Just watch it.

The songs are amazing. I've since been singing and trying to not look gay, but eh'. I love music. I love the way the music in this short film blends so well with the characters. Very well done.

In other news I love Niki. Like, I'm talking head-over-heals. She's so amazing. Always encouraging and I couldn't imagine life without her... and I don't want to. Her smile, her laugh, her smell... everything about her is just amazing. Just the fact that she puts up with me. I'd say that's an accomplishment in and of itself.

So, I need to go see the new Batman movie. It looks awesome. I loved Batman Begins. This is gonna be sweet.

Swinging

Have you ever just gone to the park late at night and gotten on the swings? Well, it's definitely an awesome thing to do when you're with someone who's having just as much fun as you. Maybe it's true, it's immature. But, the truth is that I'm glad I can have a good time being myself.

Besides, I almost hurled after I went upside down on the swings. How awesome is that?

Go out with your girlfriend, check. Get dinner, check. Go to the park at 10:30pm and almost hurl on a swing-set, check.

Yeap, sounds just about like an amazing night in the making... or perhaps just the beginning of a relationship with Brian... hhmm

It wouldn't have been the first time I've hurled in front of a girlfriend. The now infamous "van ride" to San Jose with the Lopez family was a good way to break in a new relationship.
I'll never forget those sweet words coming from my then sweetie, "Um... Dad. Can you pull over? Brian doesn't look so good."

It was no sooner than her saying those words when the bottle of water I had drank that morning made a grand exit from my tummy and luckily missing everything (and everyone) of importance.

Laughter ensued.

Why?

Was it because I was the guy who was trying to impress his new girlfriend's family? Maybe it was because it was just hilarious of me to throw up in the back seat of my girlfriend's dad's van. Perhaps it was because everyone knew I was a little bit nervous. Or... maybe, just maybe, it was because it was all these things coupled with the fact that I'm just Brian.

Whatever it may be, I've still not lived that day down. Not because it was a one time thing, but because it's been a legacy of mine. I've since thrown up two more times in a Lopez vehicle. That's right, two more times. Wow, talk about a series of bad luck events.

Anyway, needless to say I didn't want to start this relationship off the same way. It's good to know that I saw the consequences of a bad call of mine to go upside down while swinging (after eating food at Denny's) and got off the swings-set in a timely manner.

Yeap, I've learned my lesson. In fact, we went on to have a great night watching the stars and having a great time (without a stomach evacuation occurring) together.

Plus, thank goodness I have a wonderful girlfriend who seems to understand that I'm just not normal. Not only that, she thinks it's pretty cool. And that, my friends, I can't take for granted. I'm freakin' weird and I know it.

Oh, and I finally let myself go a bit that night. I was rewarded with a great return. Here's to a great start of a new relationship...


...hopefully without a traditional Brian 'moment'.

Getting out with pianos.

I almost got away with doing absolutely nothing today. Well, not counting having lunch with the family. Up until about 8pm I was home free with my "I'm not doin' nothin' today at all!" day. Then everyone was going to Denny's which I wasn't going to go to until I heard that Tessa said she wanted to show me the song I had showed her a long time ago on the piano.

I had to go now. She'd been practicing all year! I really wanted to hear it, plus it had been a while since I had seen her and everyone else. OH OH, and Kyle's back too! Sweet.

So, we went to Denny's, ate, then went to Kyle and Tessa's. She played the piano for me and it was absolutely beautiful. I sang and played the piano a bit and that was fun. I love to play whenever I get a chance. It's pretty much awesome.

Mike and I came back to my house and we've been just talking ever since. It's now late and I need to go to bed.

Oh, the A's won today. They've been mediocre at best this month... it's been pretty bad. I hope they do better.

Goodness.

Ok, so I admit it, I suck at blogging. This is what? My first blog in like two months? Lemme look... Ok, one month. Either way, a lot has happened in a month. My job has decided to let myself and another co-worker do profit sharing which could potentially lead to much more financial security, Niki and I made it official... we're totally together now, and um... I still haven't gotten my car. How awesome is that?

Yeah, Ooh oh ohoh! I did however pay off almost all my credit card debts! I still owe some on a card but I'm keeping that little bit in there for a short while because I heard that having at least some debt is good for a credit score. So, I'm lookin' to maximize my score before I get my car so I can get a better loan percentage.

I think I still want the Mazda3. From what I've read so far, every person that's written a review who's owned the car has loved it. It's fast, affordable, freakin' sweet looking, and fuel efficient. Hot.

So, I really like Niki. I've been so cautious up to this point because I've been guarding my heart. But, since the 11th of May (eh-hem, the day we made it official) I've really allowed myself to take that risk. To put my heart out there for her... and so far, it's been awesome. She's been nothing but great to me. She's supportive, sweet, kind, sensitive, smart, funny, and very open. Oh, and she actually wants to do stuff with me. haha That's kind of nice. Sure, I have a lot of friends who like to do things with me... but this is a girl... WHO LIKES ME. What the heck? That's hot.

Seriously though, I think I may be falling for my girlfriend...

I'd vote for Barkley.

I love Charles Barkley. Because he was such a great basketball player? Not really, I didn't like him much when he played. Sure, as much as I didn't like him much, I had to respect the man's ability to play basketball. He's one of the greats. But, I'm not talking about his ability to play basketball now, I'm talking about who he is, the opposite of fake.

Perhaps that's why I didn't like him as a child. I loved Jordan's personality probably because he's most likely a fake. He probably just smiles to appease the media so that he can be liked. Someone that plays off that 'like' for selling the brand of 'Jordan'. Does it work? You betcha.

Barkley? Nope, he didn't care if you liked him or not. He just said what he believed and really meant it. He's actually sincere and real. Barkley was brash, arrogant, and honestly honest. As a kid I hated it, but now I'm finding that I can at least respect a person who isn't giving me a front, regardless of how abrasive I feel they are.

For this reason--and because he's got enough money to not want to go into politics just for the money--I think he'd be a great politician that can actually change things. This is exactly the right type of politician we need. Someone from the inside that we can trust.

The world would be better of with people who speak out and actually say the things that people avoid because they're afraid to offend.

He's not swayed by money, the dude's got plenty. He's not blinded by race, either.

It's because of quotes like this, "I don't create controversies," he has said. "They're there long before I open my mouth. I just bring them to your attention."

Or ... "You only get in trouble when you say what people don't want you to say."--Barkely, espn.com

Really, this man can change things. When he said that Jesse Jackson and Al Sharpton are hypocrites, I was almost immediately hooked.

Charles, please do run. Let's see what someone who speaks what he really sees can do. Let's see how far a genuine person can go in our corrupt political world. I'll be rooting for you and I sure hope I won't be the only one.

Here's to someone who might actually be able to bring some real change.

--Brian

Things

Been a while...

So, what's happened? Well, my time is gone. hah

It seems as though there's not enough of it in the day. Perhaps this is normal for normal people, but I'm not normal. My time is my most prized possession. Maybe when I can let that go I shall truly gain it back again. heh, the exact concept of what I 'should' believe in.

Either way...

To answer your question, No. That's not why I 'left' you.

It's too bad I haven't been able to really and completely say it all. I really did care very much for you enough to do what I felt was the right thing. I'm sorry.


Things are crazy right now. I have a gamut of feelings right now racing through me. I have a decision right now that's really facing me down. I didn't think I'd be making it this early. I just got exactly what I prayed for and then found another opportunity knocking at my door that would give me all the security that I could want right now. But, I'm stuck between loyalty and personal gain, but a good personal gain. It's an actual non-greedy gain. It's something that everyone would say, "Great decision. Good choice."

So, what's my problem? I cannot put myself into the best place for myself because of other people's feelings. I just wish I knew how people would feel if I did what was best for me. The thing is that this wouldn't only be good for me, it would be great for a family I may want to raise at some point. A future... security.

Oh and the A's line up this year? Already happened. I forgot to get back to you. Sorry. =/

As of right now, though? The A's are 9-5. Righteous.

Baseball Season

Oh yes! Here it comes! Baseball season. It's fast approaching and with it, my hope of a great year for the Oakland Athletics.

I absolutely love baseball. Why? I don't know. Let's explore this a bit...

What is it about throwing a small spherical object towards another person at a high velocity that's so fun? Perhaps it's the violence of it. I mean, comon, it's a violent act to throw a projectile towards a person, especially at a high rate of speed. But, none-the-less it's a fun pastime!

I've been an Oakland Athletics fan since I can even remember. I've collected the cards, the hats, and whatever else I could afford. I watched every game I could and it wasn't just the team as a whole, I loved the players. I loved watching each of them accomplish certain things in each game so every pitch was exciting. Then again, I'm such a stats person, I study them when I get a chance... I love stats. I love watching my favorite players do well in certain statistical categories and then go rank them against other stars in the league....

*sigh* I'm weird.

Oh well. Baseball season is coming! And not only does that mean that I'll actually be watching t.v. again but it means that Spring is coming! The days are going to be getting longer and that means I can go out more! I can play basketball, baseball, or whatever else I may want to do. I love this time of year... the mark of a fresh start!

This season the A's devastated a lot it's fans by trading away some of our favorite players; Nick Swisher, Danny Haren, Mark Kotsay, Marco Scutaro, and Jason Kendall. Well, I should say Billy Beane traded them away, but hey... he's the GM for a reason, so we've got to trust him, we just don't have to like him. :P

But seriously, we have a ton of young talent this year. I can't wait to see Barton play a full season at first base. It's going to be nice to see Travis Buck develope into one of the premier out fielders in the league, and he's definitely got the talent! It looks like Rich Harden finally has a good medical staff on board to help him out this year! haha

IF the A's can stay healthy and get some good production out of its new players, they're going to be a very dangerous team. The potential is there.

My projected starting pitchers this year if no other roster moves take place within the next few weeks:

SP: Joe Blanton
SP: Rich Harden
SP: Chad Gaudin
SP: Justin Duchscherer
SP: Lenny DiNardo?

-Blanton is a proven starter and a great innings eater. He has a solid era and can pitch far into ball games giving the bullpen great rest. He's also a quality starter throughout the year staying consistent from start to finish.

-Rich Harden is another "could have been" when unhealthy. When healthy, a top 5 pitcher in the league. He has a tremendous fast ball and change up. When his command is good he's an Ace of Aces... but when he's struggling he's very much hittable, and unfortunately he's known to have command issues at times. So, with the new training equipment and throwing program he's on, it should help his chances of staying healthy. I also hear he's been working on some new mechanics which may help with his command and risk of injury.

-Chad Gaudin was an accidental starter last year but proved he can be very effective. For a time he was right there with Dan Haren as one of the best pitchers in the league. But, injuries slowed him down and over the off-season he had surgery to correct a hip problem. This year, should he stay healthy, will tell whether or not he's as good as he's shown.

-The Duke, when healthy he's been an unstoppable set-up man. Injuries have slowed him down in the past couple of years but he's had time to recover this time around so hopefully he'll be able to really prove he belongs as a starter. We all know he has the potential and the pitches, it's just whether or not he'll be able to go the innings and stay healthy. Another upside is that with Alan Embree doing so well the A's won't feel so bad taking him from the Bullpin. So, this is his big chance!

-Lenny DiNardo was another surprise starter last year as the A's were having one of their worst injury plagued seasons they'd ever had. DiNardo stepped up and was a very very pleasant surprise showing that he could take down some of the best bats in the game. He was very good under pressure and stayed consistent. He's really the only Starter I've put down as being
questionable because of some of the rookies the A's have that have potential Ace status. And since the A's are rebuilding this year, they have just as much a chance at the starting job as DiNardo does. Besides, even if he doesn't make the starting gig, it would only make the A's already great Bullpin even better.




The next episode I'll talk about the starting position players and batting order.

Music (Repost)

Music. I think one of the most ultimate forms of expression. Amazing, beautiful, enchanting, moving, simple, yet complex. Music. It moves me forward and keeps me going. It's always changing and always fluid. When done right, it seems as though it stops time and you with it. When done wrong, it seems to break into your life and cause chaos in that moment.

Music... I cannot live without music. Try as I may, I cannot express how much it means to me. Not only to play it, not only to feel it, not only to hear it... but to really experience it. To immerse myself in it... to bathe in it. I may sound mad, crazy, whatever you will call it. But, the truth of the matter is that when I listen to simple, beautiful music I find that I am overcome with emotion.

I cannot fully explain why. Yet, with all my heart, I love it. It can move me like nothing else can. Happiness, joy, sorrow, pain, the indescribable feelings you get that you cannot explain. The feeling in your chest that grows when you hear it. Pushing its way up through your throat into your mind. Once there it rests for a moment only to overwhelm it. It then gracefully cascades forward into your eyes. To some, soft tears fall; to others, a smile. To me, my mind seems to sway into whatever it listens to.

Beautiful music. Oh what beautiful music... soft piano, skillfully played harps, guitar arpeggio... all of these as beautiful as the next. Yet, most beautiful when played with full emotion or feeling.

The most beautiful music to me when it is played with so much emotion that it pours itself inside of you and fills you to the brim. You cannot get away other than to turn the music--itself--off. But that would be ludicrous. Who could do such a thing? Not I. I must bathe in it and soak in all that it is. I feed off it. It is mine... at least for that moment.

I cannot live without music.

Getting Out

It's nice. I've been getting out a lot more. Ironically a lot of it has to do with my grandparents moving to town from Oklahoma. Considering that they're stuck in the house so often (well, my grandma at least, she's been sick) I'd still be thinking I'd be 'in' more often, if you catch my drift.

Yet, it seems that as I get used to being out I don't mind it. Well, actually I'd say that I'm less dependent upon that which I have at home. Perhaps the security I have at home is becoming less and my security in being out and making new memories has become more. I hope it's the latter of the two.

One thing I find about myself--I'm not sure if this is true of everyone else or not--is that that which I do mostly is what I'm want most. When I was going through a lot of depression (which I didn't admit to at the time) I found that I stayed in my house... like, 24/7. It was really bad. I'm a person who LOVES to be around my friends. But, it seemed as though the desire to be secure was won out more than my desire to go out and be with everyone.

I'm glad I'm at this point in my life. Now, if only I can get myself to be consistent with exercising again! I used to be in great shape, now I'm in A shape. haha More like a big ol' "O" shape. >.<

Today was a good day. In prelude to it, Jason and I have been watching movies almost every single night. And for most of you who know me know that I'm not a huge movie buff. I do enjoy watching movies, but I feel that when it's not a movie I feel I GOTTA see, I don't bother. If everyone else is watching it, then yeah, I'll watch it. So, this recent trend has been somewhat unexpected, even to myself.

I think knowing that Jason is going to be leaving to go to Sweden is making me realize that I'm going to miss him tremendously. He's been my best friend since Junior High. I think I'm also rediscovering our great times and making new great times as well. We've been having a great time watching great movies and making fun of the horrible ones--which is almost as fun as watching the great ones!

So today we hung out in the morning and ate a bit in our cold apartment. Afterward we went to my grandparents house and visited for a while until we went to a friend's wedding reception. I had a great time just visiting with everyone, I'm glad I went. I normally wouldn't go to such an event just because I often choose to stay home and spend time relaxing. Maybe I should shift my mind to realize that relaxing is something that only happens once in a while and that being out often is the norm. I'd actually appreciate myself more if my first reaction to 'going out' was a positive and actually excited one. Right now it's hesitant and I usually have to decide it against staying in thinking that I'd much rather be doing nothing.

After the reception, Jason and I went to see the Spiderwick Chronicles with Jordan. hah, why we went to go see a kids flick is beyond me, but I had a great time. Jason and I pretty much MST3K'd it. Awesome. Afterward, some awesome BF2 time.

So, here I am listening to Chevelle's new CD on my awesome headphones (that's another awesome) and writing in this blog. w00t

Well then, GOOD NIGHT, and I don't care what time it is for you. You have to go to bed now that I've said it. Sorry, it's science.

Last Few Days

Well then, seeing as how I have a horrible memory, it's probably a better idea to write one of these things everyday rather than every three. :( I'm probably not going to remember many details.

So, here we go.

Friday:

I pretty much went to work and when I got off I decided to do nothing. But, when I get home that's not the case. I started to work on a project of learning how to make mini images of cds and dvds. Supposedly simple, but it gets pretty complex when you add in the equation of copy protection.

Jason and I decided we'd like to eat at a little restaurant in town called the Pelican's Roost. It used to be solely Sea Food. But, a Japanese and Korean couple purchased it about a year and a half ago. They're not super fast with their service... but, they do their best and they're amazingly nice. Jason and I usually go there just because of them and because we want to see them succeed.... and because I absolutely love their fried zucchini. :D

So, it was 8:33pm when I called and asked,

"Hello, may I ask what time you close, please?"

He responded with something I didn't quite understand because of his Japanese accent.

So, I asked again, "Are you already closed?"

At this he said, "Oh, well... where do you live?"

Puzzled I said, "Well, Jackson."

With no hesitation he says, "Come on down! eat!"


At this point I'm thinking, well... I think they're open. So, I thank him and say, "Alright, I'll be there!"

So, Jason and I get there and the guy is waiting out in the empty seating area prompting me to feel instantaneously bad. As I walk in I ask, "you were closed weren't you?" He just assured us it was ok and said that he had nothing better to do and needed to do something productive! haha, what a nice guy!

So, Jason and I got a bunch of food and tipped them a pretty big tip. Oh, and I tried my Japanese on the poor guy. Let's just say there was laughter a-plenty. lol

But, I'm very glad we went. They're awesome people and it was good to get to know them better. I wish them all the best.






Saturday:


So, Saturday I woke up late because it's awesome to do so. Actually, it's not awesome to wake up at like 3 in the afternoon only to watch one movie and see the sun go down. What a bummer feeling. So, I never like to sleep in too late... but late enough. lol

So anyway, I watched some t.v. and then went to my grandma's. Helped out a bit and ate some lunch. Went back home to do more research on that mini image thing I was working on.

I then went to lunch with Shawna, Vanessa, and Kevin. They aptly named it the "Un-valentines-valentine-dinner". Clever.

By the way, I told by the waitress at Strings that I shouldn't treat my 'girlfriend' "like that". haha Oh man.

Anyway, after dinner we said our goodbyes and took a picture. It was good to hang out and see them again as we've not just done something like that in a long time. FIFTH ELEMENT IS CALLING, I CAN HEAR IT!

I get home and Jason, Kevin, and I decide that going to the movie would be folly, so we got some Ben and Jerry's Phish Food and watched Shoot Em Up. Eh', it was entertaining. Can't say it's on my 'must see' list.

After said movie I can't remember what happened. Sleep occurred shortly after my memory lapse.



Sunday:


Ah yes, today. Got up, went to Church. Came home and ate the rest of my food from Pelican's Roost (couldn't let it waste!), and some extra food from Strings. Leftovers aren't bad at all.

I relaxed just for a little bit and then had to go to the church to practice music with Brandon. After that we had our Worship band practice and then played for everyone at 5:30pm. After that we watched a really horrible comedian. I've never seen a comic that was good at putting me to sleep. I'll have to order one of his cassettes for when I can't seem to make it to dream land.

After that I took Brandon home, got some new clothes, and then ran to the movies. We watched Jumper which was alright. Good plot and mediocre character development (I could definitely write more about this) and a so-so ending.

After the movie we jetted to Denny's and ate some dinner. Fun fun. I actually didn't get sick. It's a first!

Played BF2 with Jason and Abe. Laughed. Here I am.

Valentine's Day

Just another day. Of course this is coming from the perspective of a single male at the age of 25. I suppose it's a bit skewed...

To another point though, I've had the "together" Valentine's Day with a significant other. It's really just another day... but, I've found that it's just like any other day; whatever you make of it. So, people choose to pursue their love on the day based on someone else's suggestion...

*EH HEM* HALLMARK.


Today was a busy, fast, and satisfying day. After work Jason and I went to Mc D's and got some dirty, greasy, junk food. We were going to go see Jumper after that but decided to watch one of the movies I bought over the weekend. We ended up watching War.

Wow. I didn't expect that movie to end up like that at all. I'm still trying to figure it all out.


After the movie here I am. Bored? Perhaps.

Left out

It's not just a position in football. hah

Honestly though, it's an odd feeling. I suppose I never really feel this way too often. I suppose it's a good thing. I need to feel some sour so that when I taste the sweet it'll be all the better. It's funny how when I notice these types of negative feelings somehow I get shown that it's not actually a bad thing, but something to grow from.

Hmmm

I suppose the biggest trap of all is feeling sorry for yourself and waiting for someone to involve you into their plans or to go out of their way to get you involved. This is a good way to look pathetic and never grow.

Now, to involve myself.

I'm Sorry

You know who you are. I'm sorry, for the way you feel... and perhaps not being able to be there for you at this time. Things will get better, you know they will... they always do. But, I'm still sorry. I apologize that I've most likely let you down. I'm sorry I'm not the person you thought that I may be. I'm sorry that I'm a hypocrite.

But, through all of this, I'm sorry that I've had to do this for now...

Feeling Better

Ok, I talked to a friend. I'm feeling much better now. I had to get a few things out there and they were really supportive. Honestly though, I just know everything's going to work out for the better good at the end of it all. It's just difficult while you're in the midst of the storm.

I'm not as concerned now and I think I can rest easy. So, don't worry! =D

It looks like I'll most likely be able to stay here and get a new roommate. It's just a determination on when now. We shall see, we shall see.

Concerns.

Ok, so I guess I do have to be concerned now. It appears that my ability to be able to stay where I'm currently living is going to be directly dependent upon other people. I don't know whether to be angry, upset, or to just trust that everything will be fine.

In the last year I have moved twice. When I was first approached with the prospect that my roommate would be leaving sometime, I was a bit shocked but ok. "I'll just find another roommate", I thought to myself. In fact, I have one in mind... the only problem is that the person I have in mind doesn't want to move... so, that's a bit of a problem.

But, this week I have just found out that my roommate could be moving even sooner. At this point I wasn't too concerned still... but then I did some figuring and realized that I could be out of a place to live if another person doesn't come to live with me. Even worse is that he doesn't know when he'll be moving out. So, I stuck in that I don't have anything definite to say to a potential roommate prospect.

*sigh*

I suppose now my stomach is informing me that there is a bit to be concerned with. I--perhaps--could be moving 3 times this year.

I just don't know where...

Not At Work

There was once a time in my life that going to work was one of the cruelest things I could think of. Just having my life dictated by someone else, giving up my precious time to be somewhere for a pre-determined amount of time that I couldn't control; it just irritated me. But now that I work where I enjoy working, I'm finding it hard to tear myself away from it... even for a day off that I've needed.

Then again, do I really need it? I get every weekend off and I have stable hours that never change. It's one of the most consistent things I've ever had in my life. At times I don't like certain things about it, but honestly and over-all, I love it. It's a part of my life, a HUGE part of my life.

For me to get past the initial feeling of being somewhere I felt that I was being held prisoner, I had to accept this as part of my life. But now, I'm sitting here not at work trying to figure out something to do with work on my mind the entire time! I can't get it out of my head. I feel guilty not being there.

I mean, I'm not being paid for this day off. They don't need me there today. I think what's bothering me most is that I probably could really use that money that I'll be missing out on. Is that really the reason or is it that when this big part of my life isn't happening at this moment I'm finding that I don't really have an answer for something else to do. My routine is momentarily shattered.

Heh, I think I'm going to make an excuse and come in today at least for a half day... My computer needs to be cleaned out! Yes! That'll be it. That'll be my guise!

*sigh* I've not eaten. I've not brushed my teeth. I've just been sitting here doing nothing. I could re-arrange my room... but that would involve work, which I'm supposedly trying to stay away from today! Well then, it appears that I'm going to work at some point. hhmmm

I'm actually wearing my work clothes. This is a bad omen.

Here I come!

Decisions.

They are what they are. Difficult. Even if the right thing to do is the most clear thing to do, it just seems as though it's even harder to follow through with it. The right thing was never an easy thing to do. Almost always painful, but always rewarding in the end.

Decisions... to follow through. To make up your mind. To decide. To determine that one needs to do what seems to be unpopular at the time to make a greater decision for the present and the future.

Someday, perhaps when looked at from beyond this point in time, that it will be known that it was the right thing to do. What's best... perhaps, someday.

Not much.

So, let's see here. I've decided that I'm going to stop being lazy when waking up. It's so easy to grab my phone (my primary alarm clock) and open it and then close it. Ah, sleep mode. It's like 8 minutes of heaven... or 8 minutes of knowing you're about to wake up again to exact same noise that woke you up the first time.

I don't get it. How on earth do people SPRING out of bed in the mornings and greet the day with a smile? I mean, even when I go to bed earlier I just want to sleep more! I suppose there is that sweet spot, where you sleep at literally 8 hours and you can get up just fine. Anything over that 8 hours will make you want more sleep and anything under will make you feel... well, groggy.

As I just re-read over my previous statement perhaps I'm alone in this. :( Either way, I've found that if I can just have enough will power, I can make myself get up on the first alarm. If I do that, I usually feel a lot better.

But, amazingly a lot can happen in those 8 minutes. I can dream a good portion of a dream in that time. I can even leave off from the previous dream or even start a new epic story that I don't want to be torn away from. This is a part of what makes waking up unbearable sometimes...

I dream my most vivid dreams in these morning hours. Usually I wake up early in the morning and then fall back to sleep. When this happens is when I have my favorite time in sleep. There seems to be more comfort and much more entertainment as I always seem to remember my dreams.

Also, I guess I remember my dreams more often than most people? If you ask me if I remember my dream from the previous night I can usually remember a lot of details depending on when you ask me. I've always wondered about that, too. Why is it that you can remember dreams so well in the morning and then by day's end you cannot remember as much? I understand the concept that the further time goes same goes your memory of less important memories. But, why are dreams so hard to remember unless extremely powerful or just straight up memorable?

hhmm, I might have just answered my own question...

Dreams... maybe that's why I don't like waking up. Oh, who am I kidding? I LOVE SLEEP. If I could sleep in everyday, I WOULD. I mean, heck yes!

Laughing and Snow Covered Roads

Man, it feels great to laugh. Just choosing to be in a good mood. At first forcing myself to put smilies everywhere and be chipper with people... well, I eventually rubbed off onto me and had a great night. Go figure.

I laughed a lot tonight and I must say, I'm in a great mood. It was good too, I needed it.

Had a bit of a stressful day at work. But, it's sort of good. I needed a bit of a shake-up. I needed something to get me out of doing the same thing everyday--pushing paper. Sure, it looks like I'm doing nothing but honestly my day is taken up mostly by doing things that involve paper work. Like, little bit here and there.

I had to go out on a service call to one of our biggest clients. Their VPN went down because the stupid DSL Technician DESTROYED our VPN tunnel by doing a factory reset on the VPN Router. Hey, thanks. That only took us an ENTIRE day to set up, jerk.

So, I had to go up a few miles past Pine Grove to get the job done. While I was up there it started to snow like crazy. Well, crazy for me. I live in California. :P In fact, I only see snow where I live about once or twice a year. The interesting thing is that if I drive 8 miles up the road (I was about 4 miles past this point) you're where it snows every year regularly.

So, these people are used to it. Me? Nope. I have a Honda Accord. Not exactly what you'd call SNOW ready. So, I'm trying to get out of this place while there's still light and while the roads are still visible. Nope. I get out of there past the time I usually get off of work.

So as I'm leaving I START SLIDING DOWN THE ROAD. GAH.

But, being the savvy driver that I am, I figured it out and got out of the slide. I then made it to the Highway and tried my darnedest to stay on my side of the road--as there was no more yellow line. So, here I am trying my best to even see as the snow was coming down pretty hard, at night, and my toes were cold. Great.

I'm white knuckling the steering wheel only doing about 35 miles per hour on the highway. Then--I thought I'd never be so happy to have someone pull in front of me--a giant Hummer pulls out in front of me and proceeds to unknowingly guide me through the mountainous terrain. So I finally make it to where the snow isn't sticking anymore and I can breath easier.

I didn't go back to work to pick up my things.

I then went to Taco Bell with Jason. MMMMMMMMM

I finished off the night with Mai and Kev playing iSketch. I laughed and I feel great. :) So, goodnight sleepy world.




p.s. Snow isn't that bad. But, I needed a good story. I was genuinely scared though. =0

My first entry...

This entry will directly contradict my blog's name. It will not be wise, nor will it be a musing.

That is all.